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Mon, 15 Oct 2007 12:27:32 -0400

Homecoming

Mon, 15 Oct 2007 12:20:57 -0400

I did great this weekend. The weekend before I got too drunk on Saturday and have been depressed all week about it. I don’t even know the conversation I had with someone and I can’t even imagine the things I must have said…

This weekend I didn’t even drink Saturday during “tailgate” and only had a few at night. I remember every detail of the whole weekend.

Friday night I went out because I had friends from California and Chicago in town, but didn’t drink at all because I had to student teach the next morning.

EVERYONE IS SO ANNOYING AT THE BAR

I was having anxiety, I was getting pushed into, stepped on, and drinks poured on because I was just standing there.

I couldn’t talk to anyone because everyone was drunk.

How did I do this last year?

I couldn’t fall asleep Friday night because everytime I was offered a shot I would get a diet coke instead, I was like shaking in my bed until 5:30 AM on and had to wake up at 7 to teach. That was fun.

Stupid caffine.

Why I want to stop drinking

Mon, 15 Oct 2007 12:18:07 -0400

Usually the next day after a day of drinking a lot of things go through my head. I am always pretty upset and try to piece together a lot of things, but suprise- can’t. Here are things I wrote down which are reasons for creating this blog.

EMBARESSMENT
I wish I could REDO that
WHY do you do this to yourself
HANGOVER
regret
I’m sad
Didn’t mean to say that
Did I really do/ say that?
Wish I could have done things differently
Depression
I’m worried
Passed out
WHAT
“I’m Sorry”
BROKEN
bombed
shots
I don’t remember
Blurry
One more chance…
Not fair
Missed opportunities
“i’m not usually like that”
bad choices…
“How did I get home?”

Binge Drinking

Mon, 15 Oct 2007 12:14:36 -0400

Binge Drinking